Luinmir's Blog
Oh the state of the world today.
I just found this lovely piece of work in my mailbox
"look, you might not be a fan of cartel's and you might not agree with them smoking and whatever else.. but that's honestly none of your business. so on behalf of all of us, please keep your rude remarks to yourself. there's no reason to post negative shit about them anywhere. you don't know them, so don't act like you do..... surprise, surprise.. your idols don't always make good choices. well get over it, it's life."
lisa09
I replied saying "please tell me you didnt just send me this in reference to a sarcastic comment I made like 4 months ago"
I'm pretty sure the comment in question was me remarking to a picture Cartel posted of a hand holding, like a little bush of pot (I dont smoke, I dont know the terminology).
I said something along the lines that it was pretty lame that it seems that bands keep doing the SAME FUCKING PHOTO of that.
I believe I used the words "it wasnt cool when Gym Class Heroes did it, and its even lamer when you do".
Now first of all, this was mildly sarcastic.
oh my goodnes... did my sarcasm effect your widdle ego? oh... you poor thing... SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GET OVER IT!!! your a sucker. ^.^
I mean seriously... taking pictures of yourself holding pot, or smoking pot, or drinking Jack straight from the bottle, or holding your motherfucking sidekick is about as pathetic as can be. You just look like a dumbass...
And the best part was "you dont know them so don't act like you do".
How the hell does she know I dont know them? I know a lot of people honey. Do YOU know them? Did the lead singer of the band tell you personally to be his protector and bitch out anyone who says even the slightest thing offensive to them in reply to a PUBLICLY posted picture?
Several friends of mine are going on tour with Cartel in the start of next year as a matter of fact. No I dont know them personally, but ask me that same question in oh.... 2 -3 months...
(oh and Cartel, my idols! Bwahahaha! Nice one... thats cute... oh and apparently it bwakes my poor widdle heart that my IDOLS Cartel! oh myloves! are smoking POT! OHNOEZ! yeah... wow, so does like... half the bands I hang with.)
some people are so patheticly self rightous it makes me pray for humanity... oh wait, shes from Sacramento... What happened to Southern California that so many of them lost their ability to be cynical? Does anyone know? Is that because so many of the older people cant make facial expressions anymore?
"look, you might not be a fan of cartel's and you might not agree with them smoking and whatever else.. but that's honestly none of your business. so on behalf of all of us, please keep your rude remarks to yourself. there's no reason to post negative shit about them anywhere. you don't know them, so don't act like you do..... surprise, surprise.. your idols don't always make good choices. well get over it, it's life."
lisa09
I replied saying "please tell me you didnt just send me this in reference to a sarcastic comment I made like 4 months ago"
I'm pretty sure the comment in question was me remarking to a picture Cartel posted of a hand holding, like a little bush of pot (I dont smoke, I dont know the terminology).
I said something along the lines that it was pretty lame that it seems that bands keep doing the SAME FUCKING PHOTO of that.
I believe I used the words "it wasnt cool when Gym Class Heroes did it, and its even lamer when you do".
Now first of all, this was mildly sarcastic.
oh my goodnes... did my sarcasm effect your widdle ego? oh... you poor thing... SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GET OVER IT!!! your a sucker. ^.^
I mean seriously... taking pictures of yourself holding pot, or smoking pot, or drinking Jack straight from the bottle, or holding your motherfucking sidekick is about as pathetic as can be. You just look like a dumbass...
And the best part was "you dont know them so don't act like you do".
How the hell does she know I dont know them? I know a lot of people honey. Do YOU know them? Did the lead singer of the band tell you personally to be his protector and bitch out anyone who says even the slightest thing offensive to them in reply to a PUBLICLY posted picture?
Several friends of mine are going on tour with Cartel in the start of next year as a matter of fact. No I dont know them personally, but ask me that same question in oh.... 2 -3 months...
(oh and Cartel, my idols! Bwahahaha! Nice one... thats cute... oh and apparently it bwakes my poor widdle heart that my IDOLS Cartel! oh myloves! are smoking POT! OHNOEZ! yeah... wow, so does like... half the bands I hang with.)
some people are so patheticly self rightous it makes me pray for humanity... oh wait, shes from Sacramento... What happened to Southern California that so many of them lost their ability to be cynical? Does anyone know? Is that because so many of the older people cant make facial expressions anymore?
Cause the hardest part of this, is leaving you
I had to put Gizmo down Wed. She was 17 so it was a long time coming,
but it was still the hardest thing Ive ever had to do. I miss her so
much. I dont remember life before her, so now facing the rest of it
without her is odd, but I always knew it would be like this. After all,
thats what life with pets are. Thats why I wont have rodents anymore. I
cant deal with only having something for 4 years and then it dying. Its
too hard on me.
I went to the MCR show in Chicago thursday. It was a nice way to help me cope, cause this way I have more to think about than just my sadness.
The performace by them was amazing. Honestly, the best live show ever. Gerard is phenominal. They all are, but, wow... he just... wow...
Pit wasnt SO bad, but I did end up getting my glasses rebroken, and a black eye from a girl while she was getting pulled out of the crowed...
... people... TRY to go out the back, getting pulled out is a LAST resort. There's a reason crowd surfing is not allowed at a lot of these places, people get hurt. So if you can, DONT go out over the crowed. People end up with broken glasses and black eyes...
The thing that sucked about it was that they made us show up at 8am to insure tickets, then we had to come back at 3 to GET our tickets, then we had to wait in line to get in, and then they opened the doors 30 MIN late (I dont care "oh you guys were about to bum rush... if you guys had been calmer, we would have opened on time." Its YOUR JOB to make sure that the crowed is safe, and keeping us out in the FREEZING COLD RAIN is NOT going to make us any LESS eager to get inside... you're douche bags...).
Then when we finally did get in, they were an HOUR late. And since it was an all ages show, they had to be done by 10, so we got ONE HOUR of seeing MCR... thats it.
And they didnt even do a meet and greet. Now, I love MCR, and I know they're great guys, so Im not going to blame them, but it would have at least been a nice consolation prize for the crap the HOB/Q101 put us through...
At least they're coming back soon.
And it really was a great show.
I went to the MCR show in Chicago thursday. It was a nice way to help me cope, cause this way I have more to think about than just my sadness.
The performace by them was amazing. Honestly, the best live show ever. Gerard is phenominal. They all are, but, wow... he just... wow...
Pit wasnt SO bad, but I did end up getting my glasses rebroken, and a black eye from a girl while she was getting pulled out of the crowed...
... people... TRY to go out the back, getting pulled out is a LAST resort. There's a reason crowd surfing is not allowed at a lot of these places, people get hurt. So if you can, DONT go out over the crowed. People end up with broken glasses and black eyes...
The thing that sucked about it was that they made us show up at 8am to insure tickets, then we had to come back at 3 to GET our tickets, then we had to wait in line to get in, and then they opened the doors 30 MIN late (I dont care "oh you guys were about to bum rush... if you guys had been calmer, we would have opened on time." Its YOUR JOB to make sure that the crowed is safe, and keeping us out in the FREEZING COLD RAIN is NOT going to make us any LESS eager to get inside... you're douche bags...).
Then when we finally did get in, they were an HOUR late. And since it was an all ages show, they had to be done by 10, so we got ONE HOUR of seeing MCR... thats it.
And they didnt even do a meet and greet. Now, I love MCR, and I know they're great guys, so Im not going to blame them, but it would have at least been a nice consolation prize for the crap the HOB/Q101 put us through...
At least they're coming back soon.
And it really was a great show.
That's it. I'm getting a sidekick
So my Helio #2 punked out on me as well.
It deletes all the information on the phone and goes back to factory settings.
After all the trouble I've had with this phone, I've decided its not worth it. I'm going to try and get my money back for this thing, and then I'm getting me a SideKick. I know, I know, I'm becoming the enemy, but as I dont have a laptop anymore (cause the stupid people wont send me my motherfucking powerchord) I dont really have a choice.
So until I get my land line up tomorrow (after loosing that) I'll be unreachable... fun.
This week has sucked the big one.
It deletes all the information on the phone and goes back to factory settings.
After all the trouble I've had with this phone, I've decided its not worth it. I'm going to try and get my money back for this thing, and then I'm getting me a SideKick. I know, I know, I'm becoming the enemy, but as I dont have a laptop anymore (cause the stupid people wont send me my motherfucking powerchord) I dont really have a choice.
So until I get my land line up tomorrow (after loosing that) I'll be unreachable... fun.
This week has sucked the big one.
Boys make me >.
sigh...
I have it on good accord that guys infact like it when the girl contacts him right away.
So I emailed this guy as soon as I got home (ish)
he emails me back 2hrs later (according to stamps)
he downloaded aim for me.
So I email him back, and I sit on aim, waiting for him to IM me, so we can get to the nitty gritty e-dates that we are forced to resort to since we live a lovely 8hrs away.
nothing.
it has been just about a whole 24hrs since his last email to me, and nothing. No follow up email, no AIM, no Yahoo! (although my phone said I had a yahoo message but it wouldnt let me see the damn IM), and he hasnt even logged on MSN (the only one he said he had, and I ended up logging on, dispite my not liking MSN one bit).
Grr!!!!!!
I haven't actually liked someone enough to care about talking to them right away since, damn... Nova... maybe Avi... so at least a year ago, if not 2.5.
and this dude totally fails.
Well fuck it then, I'm not waiting for him to show up.
boys suck.
I have it on good accord that guys infact like it when the girl contacts him right away.
So I emailed this guy as soon as I got home (ish)
he emails me back 2hrs later (according to stamps)
he downloaded aim for me.
So I email him back, and I sit on aim, waiting for him to IM me, so we can get to the nitty gritty e-dates that we are forced to resort to since we live a lovely 8hrs away.
nothing.
it has been just about a whole 24hrs since his last email to me, and nothing. No follow up email, no AIM, no Yahoo! (although my phone said I had a yahoo message but it wouldnt let me see the damn IM), and he hasnt even logged on MSN (the only one he said he had, and I ended up logging on, dispite my not liking MSN one bit).
Grr!!!!!!
I haven't actually liked someone enough to care about talking to them right away since, damn... Nova... maybe Avi... so at least a year ago, if not 2.5.
and this dude totally fails.
Well fuck it then, I'm not waiting for him to show up.
boys suck.
I miss them
mmhmm i want to linger
mmhmm a little longer
mmhmm a little longer here with you
mmhmm its such a perfect night
mmhmm it doesnt feel quite right
mmhmm that it should be my last with you
mmhmm and come september
mmhmm i will remember
mmhmm of happy days and friendships true
mmhmm and as the years go by
mmhmm i'll think of you and sigh
mmhmm this is goodnight and not goodbye
mmhmm i want to linger
mmhmm a little longer
mmhmm a little longer here with you.
mmhmm a little longer
mmhmm a little longer here with you
mmhmm its such a perfect night
mmhmm it doesnt feel quite right
mmhmm that it should be my last with you
mmhmm and come september
mmhmm i will remember
mmhmm of happy days and friendships true
mmhmm and as the years go by
mmhmm i'll think of you and sigh
mmhmm this is goodnight and not goodbye
mmhmm i want to linger
mmhmm a little longer
mmhmm a little longer here with you.
hmmm o.O
My Wentzy-Sense is tingling...
... oh FBR post... hmmm made this morning...
... I'm quite off lately...
... oh FBR post... hmmm made this morning...
... I'm quite off lately...
Ugh! What is honestly wrong with the world?
And today was going so well?
So first I'm just bored and I'm reading my f-list on LJ.
I see someone link to Johnny Minardi's LJ...
So I'm checking that out, and I'm looking at who's on his friends page, to see if its anyone I know from the neighborhood.
I see one person I hung out with on Saturday (turns out it was Andrew Jakus... I guess people know who he is... which is pretty cool, I did not know that, and frankly I really dont care... I just think its neat... anyhow I'll get to that later), as well as some people who look like they hang out in the Chicago Music scene and looked pretty cool.
One person, I have no idea who, just some chick, says "friend me and I'll friend you back." So I thought "hmmm, I'll friend her and write a note... Maybe I can make a new friend. I like new friends".
Then I added her aim, because I wanted to tell her this on aim first, but she wasnt online, so I just made a comment in her LJ...
I'm looking through my buddy list just now, and I see her away message has been changed to something about being stalked on the internet... I'm thinking "I hope she isnt talking about me... damn who the fuck is she even?!? I'm just trying to meet new people and she's the one that said "friend me adn I'll friend you back." What the hell? I seriously hope she's not talking about me...
Then I ask my friend if I should know who Andrew Jakus is, cause the name sounded so familiar, and I knew it wasnt from just hearing it once when he introduced himself to me (turns out theres a picture of him with his full name on Nick Scimeca's Buzzent... and Ive flipped through that once or twice).
She says "Why, do you just like bragging that you hang out with famous people?"
What the heck!? How am I bragging? And are these dudes even that famous? They're just some Chicago musicians, that I totally dig (and some dudes from the same lable, as is the case at times). I dont care if its The Academy Is... or Davenport, I like hanging out with musicians, because thats what I do too. I like hanging out with people like myself, so fucking sue me.
Then just for fun, I look at a certain 'sceen queen' (read groupie)'s away message (cause I like it when its like "OMG I FUCKING HATE ALL THESE JEALOUS BITCHES WHO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME!!!" lmao... ugh drama is funny), and it says "Having Dinner with a one Mr. Pete Wentz!"
Okay! Now THAT is bragging!!!!!
:bangs head on desk:
Why is it so complicated for me just to live what would be a normal life for me?
So first I'm just bored and I'm reading my f-list on LJ.
I see someone link to Johnny Minardi's LJ...
So I'm checking that out, and I'm looking at who's on his friends page, to see if its anyone I know from the neighborhood.
I see one person I hung out with on Saturday (turns out it was Andrew Jakus... I guess people know who he is... which is pretty cool, I did not know that, and frankly I really dont care... I just think its neat... anyhow I'll get to that later), as well as some people who look like they hang out in the Chicago Music scene and looked pretty cool.
One person, I have no idea who, just some chick, says "friend me and I'll friend you back." So I thought "hmmm, I'll friend her and write a note... Maybe I can make a new friend. I like new friends".
Then I added her aim, because I wanted to tell her this on aim first, but she wasnt online, so I just made a comment in her LJ...
I'm looking through my buddy list just now, and I see her away message has been changed to something about being stalked on the internet... I'm thinking "I hope she isnt talking about me... damn who the fuck is she even?!? I'm just trying to meet new people and she's the one that said "friend me adn I'll friend you back." What the hell? I seriously hope she's not talking about me...
Then I ask my friend if I should know who Andrew Jakus is, cause the name sounded so familiar, and I knew it wasnt from just hearing it once when he introduced himself to me (turns out theres a picture of him with his full name on Nick Scimeca's Buzzent... and Ive flipped through that once or twice).
She says "Why, do you just like bragging that you hang out with famous people?"
What the heck!? How am I bragging? And are these dudes even that famous? They're just some Chicago musicians, that I totally dig (and some dudes from the same lable, as is the case at times). I dont care if its The Academy Is... or Davenport, I like hanging out with musicians, because thats what I do too. I like hanging out with people like myself, so fucking sue me.
Then just for fun, I look at a certain 'sceen queen' (read groupie)'s away message (cause I like it when its like "OMG I FUCKING HATE ALL THESE JEALOUS BITCHES WHO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME!!!" lmao... ugh drama is funny), and it says "Having Dinner with a one Mr. Pete Wentz!"
Okay! Now THAT is bragging!!!!!
:bangs head on desk:
Why is it so complicated for me just to live what would be a normal life for me?
hmm okay new plan
So I'm thinking that the demo is going to take too damn long for my personal taste.
I'm gunna try and find a band, but for the time being, I'm going to write some good acoustic songs, and then try and do some video posts. Lets see if that works...
what d'you think?
I'm gunna try and find a band, but for the time being, I'm going to write some good acoustic songs, and then try and do some video posts. Lets see if that works...
what d'you think?
I want to dig an emo hole, crawl in, and cry till Oct 20th.
Yay for PostConcert Depression.
Oh how it rears its ugly head.
I was trying to meet with Oleg today, but my phone is dead. I used Moses's but Moses took it with him, and so if Oleg calls back, then Moses will have it, and he'll have to call someone here to tell me... which I guess could work.
Except I havent heard anything.
Its been a month and all I have is one song, with partial syth and partial drums.
I have no band, I can't perfom live.
I can't take this anymore. The only way any of this is going to get done is if I have people who are as passionate as me about my art helping me, and theres only like two people who are that. I cant do this on my own, I just can't, I dont have the resources, but I can't find anyone to help me.
Something needs to change, I just can't stand this waiting anymore. I want what I had last night all the time. I want the stage, the lights, the music, the fans, the dancing, the merch, interacting with other musicians, meeting new people all the time, people constantly supporting what I love more than other thing in the world.
but tomorrow I have to go back home, wake up, go to school, worry about school things, and worry about how Im going to get the money to get through this and next month. Worry about trying to find a drummer, a guitarist, a bassist, a keyboardist, worry about how Im going to get out of here in time to actually live my life.
I'm just so emotionally exhausted from this, and frustrated with it all.
Oh how it rears its ugly head.
I was trying to meet with Oleg today, but my phone is dead. I used Moses's but Moses took it with him, and so if Oleg calls back, then Moses will have it, and he'll have to call someone here to tell me... which I guess could work.
Except I havent heard anything.
Its been a month and all I have is one song, with partial syth and partial drums.
I have no band, I can't perfom live.
I can't take this anymore. The only way any of this is going to get done is if I have people who are as passionate as me about my art helping me, and theres only like two people who are that. I cant do this on my own, I just can't, I dont have the resources, but I can't find anyone to help me.
Something needs to change, I just can't stand this waiting anymore. I want what I had last night all the time. I want the stage, the lights, the music, the fans, the dancing, the merch, interacting with other musicians, meeting new people all the time, people constantly supporting what I love more than other thing in the world.
but tomorrow I have to go back home, wake up, go to school, worry about school things, and worry about how Im going to get the money to get through this and next month. Worry about trying to find a drummer, a guitarist, a bassist, a keyboardist, worry about how Im going to get out of here in time to actually live my life.
I'm just so emotionally exhausted from this, and frustrated with it all.
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